Sunday, April 3, 2016

Testament

This prose-poem was originally published some years ago, in the online journal Yggdrasil, still going strong it would seem.

Testament
  
by

Victor Grauer
  
  
   When the General went out the door he came in the door. In going out
   the door the General came in. As he, the General, exited, he, the
   General, entered. For a moment he was exactly at the threshold between
   the inside and the outside and at that moment he became divided from
   himself exactly in half, one half to enter and the other half to leave.
   One half spoke. The other half remained silent.
 
   When the General went out the door he came in the same door. In going
   out the door the same General came in. Going out the same he whispered
   the same to himself coming in. For a moment what he whispered was
   exactly at the threshold between the same inside and the outside
   different from the same and at that same moment he became divided from
   himself exactly in half, one half to enter and the other half to leave.
   One half the same. The other half different.
  
   When the General went out the door a different General came in the
   same door. In going out the door a different General came in different.
   Going out he became indifferent to what he whispered to himself as he
   came in. For a moment what he became was exactly at the threshold
   between the inside and the outside of what he was to become and what
   he was to become outside became indifferent to what he became inside
   and at that moment he became divided from himself exactly in half,
   one half to enter and the other half to leave. One half to remember.
   The other half forgot.
  
   When the General went out the same door he came in he forgot. In going
   out the door the indifferent General became different from himself.
   Going out he forgot what he whispered to himself as he remembered to
   come in. For a moment what he forgot was exactly at the threshold
   between the inside of what he remembered to whisper and the outside
   of what he remembered before he forgot to whisper and at that moment
   he became divided from himself exactly in half, one half to enter and
   the other half to leave. One half whispered. The other half didn't
   notice.
  
   When the General went out the same he whispered and then cleared his
   throat coming in different. In going out the door the same General
   similarly cleared his throat and then whispered to himself going in
   the door similarly. As he, the General, went out the door the same,
   he, the same General, came in the door similarly. For a moment what
   he whispered going in was the same as what he forgot to notice going
   out and similarly what he forgot to notice was whispered to what he
   forgot to whisper before he was going to be different and at that
   moment he became divided from himself exactly in half, one half to
   enter and the other half to leave. One half to serve notice. The
   other half to be served without notice.
  
   When the General went out the same as he came in he came in the same
   the same as he went out before he came in. In going out the door the
   door he came in by opened and he came in the door he came out by. As
   he, the General, served notice notice was served similarly to himself
   without notice. For a moment a moment he forgot he served notice he
   was about to whisper something something he forgot to whisper before
   he forgot to listen to what he forgot to whisper at that moment and
   at that moment at a moment's notice notice was served that moment and
   at that moment he became divided from himself exactly in half, one
   half to enter and the other half to leave. One half to notice. The
   other half to be noticed.
  
   When the General noticed the General noticed that going out was the
   same same that coming in in the same way was he noticed he was noticed
   by the General the same way on the same way going out. In going out
   the door going in he was noticed giving notice whispering to himself
   himself whispering to someone else. Going out he remembered to be
   noticed listening to himself whispering in the same way way beyond
   a moment's notice. For a moment a moment he remembered he became
   himself himself becoming someone else and at that moment someone
   someone else noticed divided from himself, divided exactly in half
   half to enter half and the other half to leave whole. One half half
   noticed no one. The other half half without notice noticed one.
  
   When the General went out the door without notice he specifically
   gave notice he wanted to meet no one coming in the other door
   without notice. In going out the door specifically the General
   encountered the specific other General he had specifically wanted
   to avoid noticing. Going out he remembered to whisper something
   other to no one specific forgetting to whisper nothing to one other
   specific person he specifically gave notice to. For a moment a moment
   of silence silence fell without notice and at that moment without a
   moment's notice divided from itself exactly in half, one half half
   to enter silence the other half to half leave silently. One half
   remained silent. The other half was silently moved.
  
   When the General the General specifically wanted to avoid noticing
   went out the door the door moved silently and the General the General
   couldn't avoid couldn't avoid noticing the other General coming in by
   the same door. In going out the door the outgoing General silently
   moved out going out the same door specifically as the other General
   coming in generally came in. As he, the General, silently came in
   silently whispering to himself the other General half whispered to
   himself going out out the same door generally the same as he himself
   generally came in. For a moment a moment was all he needed at that
   moment and at that moment that moment momentarily divided itself
   from itself exactly in half one half exactly to divide itself from
   itself the other half inexactly to be divided itself by dividing
   itself dividing itself exactly in half. One half needed nothing. The
   other half was next to nothing.
  
   When the General the General generally needed to avoid needed to
   avoid the General who needed to avoid him specifically the General
   specifically went out the door the door he generally needed to come
   in. In going out out the same door the needed General needed next to
   nothing moved in in the same door generally needed to move nothing
   other in as he went in the other door. Going out he remembered going
   out to move next to what he needed specifically to move next to nothing
   to what he specifically noticed going in. For a moment he noticed
   himself whispering next to what he had been whispering before nothing
   moved in and at that moment what moved nothing divided itself exactly
   in half one half exactly half of what nothing had been moved out of
   one half next to nothing of what nothing had moved. One half to move
   next to nothing. The other half to avoid being moved next to by nothing.
  
   When the General the General generally needed needed to avoid the
   General the General needed to avoid the General needed to specifically
   go out the same door the same same door he needed to avoid coming in
   to avoid coming in. In going out out the out door he generally avoided
   going out the same in the same door specifically specifically to avoid
   being moved next to nothing being moved in in the other in door going
   out out the other other outdoor door. Going out he noticed nothing
   other coming coming in the indoor door and moved out out the outdoor
   door going outdoors noticed nothing moving out out the other indoor
   door to move nothing other indoors noticed nothing indoors moved out
   the out door out the outdoor door outdoors nothing. For a moment he
   moved nothing out the outdoor door to avoid going indoors moved
   nothing next to nothing in the indoor door outdoors to avoid going
   outdoors next moved next to nothing needed nothing moved nothing
   next to the outdoor door divided from itself and at that moment the
   outdoor door divided from itself exactly in half one half exactly
   divided coming in from itself the other half going out itself going
   out exactly divided. One half moved previously. The other half was
   subsequently not moved.
  
   When the General the General needed noticed nothing nothing the General
   generally needed needed the noticed General previously to be moved
   specifically in in the out door subsequently as the General the General
   moved moved unnoticed out out the in door. In going in going going in
   the out door himself previously unnoticed he himself specifically
   moved nothing in in the in door in coming coming in and generally
   noticing nothing in general to be moved subsequently moved in. As he,
   the General, came he moved nothing he himself needed moved in in
   himself came himself as himself next to himself as nothing came to
   be moved came in the same door subsequently moving next to himself
   himself needing next to nothing nothing moved noticing nothing moved
   he came himself to be moved needing nothing came to be moved moved
   next next to next to himself to himself came to came came came to
   came to came to came came himself came came to came to himself
   himself came to himself. For a moment he needed nothing moved nothing
   nothing next to nothing next to next to nothing moved moved nothing
   nothing nothing needed nothing next next to nothing next nothing
   needed next needed nothing next next next nothing moved nothing
   moved nothing moved and at that moment nothing moved the General
   the General the General nothing nothing moved the General as he
   divided from himself exactly in half one half exactly himself himself
   coming to coming coming to coming to himself exactly himself exactly
   the other half inexactly divided from himself as he moved himself
   inexactly as he himself moved himself moved moved was moved moved
   himself himself was moved himself inexactly himself moved as himself
   himself himself divided from himself going out inexactly divided
   divided divided as he divided himself from himself. One half exactly
   one coming to coming coming to coming to himself. The other half
   half inexactly going going to going to going to.
  
END



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